God’s Grace

“So have no fear, I myself will provide for you and your little ones.” In this way he reassured them, speaking kindly to them. – Genesis 50:21

I can’t believe we have already been back for 8 months. So much has happened and I can’t even begin to describe the overwhelming grace and love God has shown us. One of the biggest fears Jeff and I had about our year of service was the return home. We didn’t have worries about the travels or the new places, we worried about the return. We were going to return home jobless and homeless. Could we find a place to live that still provided our children with a good school, moreover, one we could afford and qualify to rent since neither of us had a job? Could we even find a job? I haven’t worked professionally in 12 years, and Jeff just left a job of 20 years. What was this going to look like for our family? Despite these fears, we forged ahead, living on our faith that God would provide.

We had an amazing year volunteering and serving God’s people, animals, and earth. I do believe that we wanted to have the faith that He would not foresake us upon our return, but there a few times we questioned His promise to us. Even though we were volunteering and in most places working almost full-time, coming back was re-entering “real life”. Finding stability for our family was a whole different kind of challenge.

Our pastor spoke of fear a few Sundays ago and it reminded me of the fear we felt before leaving for this year of service and the many conversations Jeff and I had about our return. I am not sure who “pushed us off the diving board” but we did get pushed, and we left, not knowing what it was going to look like on the other side. That worry and fear never dissipated; it would come and go throughout that year and would become ever more prominent as we approached our last few months abroad.

We struggled to find a place to live. We knew we had friends that would house us, if needed, but it that wasn’t what we hoped to do. We were denied multiple times for apartments because neither of us had an income, we had the money, just not the job. I applied for 40-45 jobs, and Jeff the same, but nothing. I worked as a waitress before we left to earn some extra money and thankfully my old manager gave me job, which was something. I was so grateful to my old supervisor for verifying my employment as a waitress/bartender when we were still overseas. His faith in me, and his friendship, allowed us get into a beautiful apartment in a wonderful school district. God’s work already at hand. Plus, I had a job and was so thankful for that.

As I look back over the last 8 months, it could not be more clear that God was at work in our lives, making sure we had what we needed, just as he had done over the previous year. It may have been stressful and a little scary, but Jeff and I continually reminded each other to be patient. Things needed to happen on God’s time, not ours.

This past few months have been so overwhelming. God’s work in our lives is still constant. New jobs, new opportunities, a new house, etc. I found a job (career) working at one of the local hospital as a medical social worker. I could not be more happy in this position. It is one that I never though t I would ever get, as I have no experience in the medical field and I thought for sure that they would look right past me, but they didn’t and I have a job I absolutely love.

We started looking at houses on a whim, just to see what was out there. We were shocked that we found a house that was exactly what we had wanted, small. We fell in love with it, but thought there was no way we would qualify, especially since Jeff didn’t have a full-time job (more on this later). But that was not the case. We qualified and we bought the house. But now we needed to find new tenants for our apartment because our lease was not up until the end of June. After several stressful weeks of thinking that we may have to carry a mortgage and rent (which would have been, let’s say, difficult, on just my income), we found a family needing to rent a place for the short-term while their house was being renovated. Things worked out better than we could have hoped and we closed on our house on Valentine’s Day (maybe that was yet another God showed his love for us?).

Jeff has struggled a bit more with the employment, which was completely baffling to me. He has 20 years of experience in sales/finance/management, how could he not find a job? (Actually, let us clarify..Jeff did find a job working in the Costco deli, for which we are very grateful, it just not a career.) Now, neither of us understood why Jeff was having so much difficulty finding a career, that is until now.

Back in July, shortly after coming home, Jeff decided to through a wild card into the mix by applying to the Madison Police Department. I know that he would make an amazing police officer and that he would absolutely love this job, but he was not very sure of his chances given his limited (or rather non-existent) experience in the field and most other applicants tend to be in their 20’s (there are not many applicants who are 40+). But here we are, almost 8 months after his application was submitted and he has just completed the final step of the process. Now we don’t know if he’ll be hired, but I truly believe that this is God’s path for him. He has been turned down for jobs for which he is either qualified or overqualified and I don’t even know if he could count the number of applications he has submitted with no response at all. But not with the police department. He has been selected to continue through this arduous process at every stage. At this point, he has no other applications out there, he/we are putting our faith in God and so we just wait patiently for God’s timing.

I am so grateful for God’s love and grace. We trusted in His way, His path, His love and we were not disappointed. He has always provided for what we need and He has never left us. Our faith has been a constant reminder that fear only holds us back from the exceptional life God has planned for us.

I knew God would provide for us, but I had no idea it would be this wonderful. I was ready for God to give us what we needed, not more than we could have ever imagined. For the first time in 9 years, we have a place of our own. A place we know our kids can grown-up without the unknown of “will we have to move next year, and a place Jeff and I can maintain for many years. The location could not be better, tons of kids and walking distance to all the schools/grocery stores/bus stops. I have a job I love and we are hopeful that Jeff will have the job that he has long desired. God’s grace is truly overwhelming if you are able to turn your back and let go of the fear that keeps us from God.

I know there will be hard times in the future, there have already been times of uncertainty since returning, but these times pass as long as we don’t get caught up in the fear.

“So have no fear, I myself will provide for you and your little ones.” In this way he reassured them, speaking kindly to them. – Genesis 50:21

Monday March 11, 2019

Mark 11:24 So I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

I am reading this scripture and writing this blog on Tuesday and I can’t help but laugh at how applicable it is. I will get to this in a minute, but first I want to give you a little snapshot of our day on Monday.

We all headed to the hospital today, the kids and I spent the first hour creating baby bundles while Jeff and Katie went to the hospital to hand out diapers. They met up with us about an hour later and we all headed outside to unload the shipment of diapers, toys, and clothing from Germany. This was their supply of diapers for the next year and we were privileged to help with this process, there were a lot of diapers! This process took several hours and was a lot of physical work. The kids helped when they could, but honestly a lot of the boxes where just too heavy for them, but I was grateful that they got involved when it was possible.

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Anjali and Sara in front of “some” boxes of diapers.

We finished about lunch time and we headed home for lunch, but shortly after I got home I got a message from Katie asking if I could help organize and sort some of the boxes with her, so I went back up to the office after lunch and a bit of math with David. I enjoyed this job of sorting and organizing (organizing and sorting is hobby of mine).

We had a nice pizza dinner and the kids went to bed (but before dinner Anjali and Lucia worked nicely together to prepare the dough for some sugar cookies that she will bake tomorrow). Jeff made a comment to me as we were getting ready for bed. He mentioned how much he wanted some weather, preferably some snow, but he would be happy with anything. He has really missed this aspect of life in Madison. I told him he should say a prayer and ask God to make this happen. He looked at me a bit bewildered and replied that he didn’t think he could ask God “to give him weather”. I replied that God cares about what he needs and if he needs weather, God cares.

Since I am writing this blog on Tuesday morning I am able to tell you what happened. This morning we woke up to snow! Granted it wasn’t a ton of snow like they have been getting back home in Madison, it was more like a light dusting that didn’t even stick to the ground, but it was still snow and still weather. Jeff was thrilled! This just proves again to me that God is in control, God cares about what we want, and God will never leave us or forsake us. So I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. (Mark 11:24).

Sunday March 10, 2019

Isaiah 41:13 For I, the Lord your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, “Do not fear, I will help you.”

Today we attended church here in Brasov. We found this church on the suggestion of Steffi, one of the co-founders of FFR and she assured us that the service was done in both English and Romanian. A funny side note was that according to Steffi I had a twin living right here in Brasov who was from New Zealand that also attended the church with her husband and three kids. I was overwhelmed by the welcome we received at the church. Catherine (my twin) spotted me right as we were walking up the stairs. The service was wonderful and I loved the lesson in the sermon, which was to listen for God’s plan for us, because God’s plan is always perfect. If we choose to follow our own plans, it will eventually come to a head and will never be as rewarding or as fruitful as when we follow His.

The reading for today speaks to that as well. I think God is speaking to me in very clear ways through the sermon today at church and through this scripture (and honestly through the last few scripture readings). I have really struggled with letting go of planning my future after this year in done. I keep going back to this idea that we have 5 months left and I keep stressing over what’s next, what will we do, where will I work, where will Jeff work, where will we live, etc. All these questions that I am trying to answer and I am failing; I don’t have the answer. I don’t know what I want to do or where I want to work or where we will be. Then these scripture readings and lessons keep coming up…listen for God’s path, God’s plans are better than yours, God will provide for you, God will never leave you, God will help you, etc. the list goes on! I am pretty sure that God knows that I need this constant reminder because He keep trying to pound it into my head. I am trying to surrender to this notion, but I tell you it is not easy.

So today our family had a wonderful Sunday afternoon and evening. We enjoyed just being together, the kids enjoyed playing with their new friends, and we all just enjoyed the Sabbath.

I am forever grateful for God’s patience with me as I try really hard to trust in His ways and His path and His plan and His timing (I think this one is the hardest because I want the answer and the plan NOW!). In my heart I know He will provide and that if we can be patient enough to listen and follow His plan, He will have more blessings for us that we could ever imagine!

Thursday March 7, 2019

Matthew 6:25-34 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air; they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And can any of you by worrying add a single hour to your span of life? And why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not clothed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear?’ For it is the Gentiles who strive for all these things; and indeed your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But strive first for the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. “So do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring worries of its own. Today’s trouble is enough for today.

Today I had my second shift at the hospital and it was very much the same as yesterday: deliver diapers, change diapers, love and snuggle babies, and then listen to them cry as we walked out of the room–so joyful and yet so heartbreaking.

While I was at the hospital, Jeff and the kids were manning the office adjacent to the hospital making baby bundles (bags of clothing for parents staying with their children at the hospital) and hygiene bags. The plan for now is the kids will be at the office working on the baby bundles and then sorting donations on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. Jeff said that the kids did really well and were even able to work in some school work into the mix, though they still have more bundles to create.

After we all finished our volunteer work for the day, we walked over to the store for some groceries for dinner. I must say, I really do despise going to the grocery store with all three of my children–they are usually getting in people’s way because they are not paying attention or they are fighting over some mundane reason like pushing the shopping cart. I am sure that every parent has to deal with these same issues, but I still can’t stand it. I don’t understand why as soon as we walk into a grocery store they lose their minds. I have so much trouble minding them and trying to figure out what we still need to get. Well after a bit of time we finished our shopping and made the short trek home. The kids were supposed to do a bit more school, but I needed them outside, so they proceeded to play with their new friends downstairs for the next 2 hours before coming in for dinner. It was a wonderful afternoon (after the debacle at the grocery store). God always has a way of turning a really frustrating afternoon into a wonderful evening.

In regards to the scripture, it came at just the right time. I have started to search for new jobs and both Jeff and I are trying to figure out where I am supposed to be after this year is up. I still have a hard time letting go of my desire to control this and leaving it up to Him. I still worry and stress about it. I am so thankful for this scripture today because it is a wonderful reminder to hand over our worries to the one person that actually handle it. I don’t know where we are supposed to be after this year, but I need to be reminded to have faith that He will lead us and guide us, we just have to listen and be open to His call and most importantly we need to be patient. It is just so hard to be patient and to relinquish this control. But what I find most entertaining is my reflections on this very topic. I have such a hard time letting go and allowing Him to be in control (I want to plan my life out so I know what is next), but every time I do that it doesn’t work out–His plans always work out, not mine. I know this in my heart, but it is just sometimes difficult to drag my mind along with it. Scripture passages like this one really help put a different perspective on it and allows me another opportunity to practice giving it all over to Him.

Sunday February 10, 2019

Proverbs 22:6 Train children in the right way, and when old, they will not stray.

We did nothing today. We spent the day at the beach, playing and being silly and then the rest of the day was relaxing at the house or running a few errands to the grocery store. The kids have enjoyed the beach more than I ever thought they would, especially since we got the boogie board. What is even more surprising is that there have been no fights over who gets to use it and they seem to be sharing it better than I have ever seen them share. When they aren’t using the boogie board they are playing in the surf or in the sand, building forts, castles, or burying each other. From what I can tell, they were really needing this vacation and again God’s plan is better than my plan!

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Tonight the kids did really well going to bed, probably because they knew we had to get up really early in the morning to catch the ferry to Rottnest Island. I enjoyed some good Australian wine, while Jeff enjoyed his beer (of all things, he has really missed his craft IPA beer and there is plenty of that here, to which he has had no problem finding).

Saturday December 15, 2018

Luke 21:1-4 He looked up and saw rich people putting their gifts into the treasury; he also saw a poor widow put in two small copper coins. He said, “Truly I tell you, this poor widow has put in more than all of them; for all of them have contributed out of their abundance, but she out of her poverty has put in all she had to live on.”

Jeff taught music to our kids this morning while I did the laundry. I have been doing all of our laundry by hand in our shower. This takes about an hour or so in total, to wash, rinse, and then hang to dry. The spinner here on the mission works wonders to get the water out of the clothes, but it is currently broken so the clothes take a bit long to dry, usually about 2 days.

After breakfast walked over the school with Uncle John and Lachlan to watch the morning assembly. It was really neat to see how the kids start their school day each morning. The assembly includes prayers, lessons to be found in scripture, and today it included a new song and some physical training. This was really neat.

On the walk home, Lucia attached herself to Uncle John and Lachlan.

As I am sure you have figured out from my previous blog posts, homeschooling our children has been a bit challenging. Actually, it has been the only thing where we feel truly challenged. This journey, while there have been challenges along the way, both Jeff and I feel at peace with the challenges. We don’t find ourselves getting frustrated or irritated with anything other than the homeschooling. We had a realization today (actually Jeff did, but he shared it with me). We have allowed God to plan and led us on this journey of service and we have been at peace with everything, even in the midst of a challenge. Homeschooling, however, we have not let God led the way. We have continually planned this aspect ourselves and it has been a constant struggle, leaving us feeling exhausted, frustrated, and even angry. We have decided that this is where we have gone wrong; we didn’t let God lead the way.

So we are giving homeschooling over to God. Obviously our kids need schooling and education, and so we will continue to teach them. But we have noticed that we have not allowed God to do His work. From this moment forward, we are going to lift every school lesson and day up to God for his guidance. What get’s done, get’s done. Our kids are very good students and we believe that we have put the emphasis on the wrong aspect of their education, completing IXL assignments (this is like an on-line school that aligns with the Common Core Standards). There is going to be a lot more prayer and asking for God’s help and direction from us and the kids. There will be less pressure from us for the kids to complete a certain amount of schooling in a day. We need to encourage more conversation with them and them with each other.

We have been missing so much of where we are and losing sight of what we were called to do. Here we are on a Christian orphanage at the base of the Himalayas and we are sticking ourselves in a cafeteria to teach the children. This is not working and no one is winning with this system! I can already feel a huge stressor being lifted off of our shoulders and I am relieved.

At tea this morning Uncle Rick mentioned that he could use Jeff and I’s help with the roof of the Big Boy’s Hostel to which we were so happy to oblige. Katie was able to enlist our kids with setting up the Christmas tree in the Nursery Hostel while we worked on the roof.

This was a great opportunity for both of us to finally do some hard work here on the mission and it was wonderful. We helped move sheet metal from the ground to the roof and then into place on the roof while Uncle Rick and Sunny bolted them into place. We were able to get about 3/4 of the roof completed until we ran out of sheet metal. This was such a great experience and we both enjoyed it a lot. We are looking forward to helping finish off the roof on Monday.

Monday October 29, 2018

Daniel 6:23 Then the king was exceedingly glad and commanded that Daniel be taken up out of the den. So Daniel was taken up out of the den, and no kind of harm was found on him, because he had trusted in his God.

Today we were back to the routine, with a slight change. We are now doing homeschooling in the morning from 7:30 – 9:00 am for our kids and then getting a bit in during our lunch break and an hour or so after we get home from teaching.

We are also looking forward to celebrating Halloween at the schools on Wednesday and sharing this fun holiday with these wonderful kids. It should be a lot of fun. Jeff had a wonderful idea to make pumpkins out of paper that we could staple candy to, so the kids could go trick or treating. When we realized that there were 135 kids at the preschool we teach we were already 40-50 pumpkins in and it was too late to change our minds. These were going to be a lot of work, but they were going to be so cute. The kids even helped us out, though a bit reluctantly. As awesome as these were going to be, I will admit that I was a bit overwhelmed at the quantity of pumpkins we were going to have to make in such a short period of time; these all needed to be done by Tuesday night. We needed to trace the pumpkins, color and decorate them, cut them out and then staple candy to each of them. We were able to finish a fair amount tonight, leaving us with only 40 to do tomorrow.

I again have my husband to thank for pulling me back to ground as my anxiety and stress started to take over my joy in making these pumpkins for the kids. He gently reminded me that we will finish them and that these are going to make the kids so happy, which makes all this work worth it. This quality in him makes me a better person and I am so grateful that God brought us together through a persistent friend! This scripture passage is just what I needed to read today, as I could feel my stress melting away when Jeff reminded me that we will complete this project as a family and that all the work is worth it to bring Halloween to these wonderful kids here in Thailand.

We have some really fun plans for the kids on Wednesday for Halloween, including Trick or Treating, Halloween songs, showing them decorated houses, and bringing in a Jack-O-Lantern! Today was quite tiring, but it will be all worth it.

As for the homeschooling aspect of the day, the kids all agreed that they really liked the schedule for spreading the work out over the day, and Jeff and I agreed. It was a lot less stressful for us to not have to be doing so much work so late into the evening. This process is really about trial and error and thankfully we are also showing our children the importance and benefit of flexibility.

Thursday October 25, 2018

Colossians 1:29 For this I toil and struggle with all the energy that he powerfully inspires within me.

My toil and struggle today has to do mainly with my children, specifically with the girls. While David did cause a bit of frustration today, that is not a regular occurrence so it is easier to handle, but the girls are continuing to test both my patience and Jeff’s with their fighting and bickering and rudeness to one another. Today was no different, I just felt drained and seemed to lack the energy to deal with all that came. On top of my children’s behaviors, we had haircuts for the girls to get and a 5 person birthday party this evening to celebrate birthdays in October and November.

Thank goodness the Lord had my back today, just as He always does and I was able to muster up some patience while dealing with my children. It is just so frustrating that they battle the homeschooling aspect of this trip. They embrace the fun and the play and the teaching beautifully, but as soon as we ask them to do their schoolwork they change their tune and no longer want to do this trip. Now this is not every day, but it happens enough to be extremely irritating. For the most part we are able to get done with their actual school work pretty efficiently, when they actually put their energy into it.

Additionally, the older kids at the primary school can make teaching quite difficult, they can be very loud and disruptive during lessons. We are trying to make it fun by playing games and such, but it just seems that there are 8-10 kids that really want to learn and that are fully engaged in the games and lessons, while the other 30+ students are just there to be there. This doesn’t both me nearly as much as it does Jeff, but it really makes teaching a bit more challenging. I think that there are just too many kids in this class, but this is basically school during break for them and beginning again in November they will go back to their normal classrooms and I assume (hope) things will be different.

The birthday party was a lot of fun with wonderful food, lots of laughter, and a bit of dancing! But for us that quickly ended when David and Lucia were showering and they proceeded to play with the shower wand like it was a hose and they were in our backyard back in Madison. According to Jeff there was about 1 inch of standing water in the bathroom because of their antics. In hindsight (I am writing this Friday morning), it is pretty funny and it is great that they were having so much fun playing together (I mean they were not fighting), but the way the went about playing was just not okay/acceptable. And then to fire Jeff up even more their bedroom was a complete and utter disaster. So all electronics were taken away from the children (except for school work) until they demonstrated a respect for the belongings of others. Now this did not go over well and we had sad/angry children until they fell asleep around 10:30 pm.

I really needed God’s patience and understanding tonight. I was hot, tired, and truly not wanting to deal with children until 10:30 pm–I wanted to be an adult for a little bit today, but I guess that is where this scripture lesson comes into play. We sometimes have really challenging days, days where frustration and aggravation seems to be more prevalent, and it is in these days/moments that we really need to relish God’s path for each one of us, especially the difficult ones. He has His reasons for making this day so challenging, and while I would prefer days where my children are respectful and loving towards one another, we also need to learn to embrace and be joyous in the moments that make us want to snap. We need to dig deep to find His energy inside of us because it is that energy that will bring us through even the most difficult of situations with grace, peace, and patience.

Here are some pictures of teaching today. The younger kids were great and totally engaged; it was a true pleasure to spend the morning with them. Here we are playing Duck, Duck, Goose (and practicing those difficult “d” and “g” sounds).

And our Crazy Train (practicing left, right, stop, go, fast, slow, hop, walk, etc.).

It was a fun birthday party too.

 

Thursday September

Ephesians 2:20 “built upon the foundation of the apostles and prophets, with Christ Jesus himself as the cornerstone.”

We attempted to get up early so we could head to the immigration office and get our Visas extended, but we failed. Everyone was so tired and once we got the kids up and out of bed, it became increasingly difficult to get them ready. We finally got David and Lucia ready, but Anjali was refusing to move. She started in with her ridiculously emotional tantrum, commenting that we could just leave her behind and that she wasn’t going to go to breakfast or the immigration office. We were in such a crappy spot because she was in control. She is too big, and it is not culturally appropriate to drag a screaming 11 year old child through a hotel lobby and the immigration office to get this done; however, if we don’t get this done, our time and commitment in Thailand is totally screwed up. I took David and Lucia down for a wonderful breakfast while Jeff stayed back to try to pull Anjali out of this tantrum. I will say that these tantrums are so emotionally fueled. She doesn’t seem to have much control over herself and it seems that once she gets going, she is not able to  bring herself back to reality for quite some time. It is really frustrating for us as parents, and was even more so this morning because our morning had to go on and we needed to get this done here since we had a flight at 16:30 (4:30 pm) to Chiang Mai where we were to spend 3 nights before heading to our home stay.

Well she did come around, though very begrudgingly, and we took a cab to the immigration office.

Our plan was to get there at 10, but we arrived just before 11 to find a crowded waiting area. It began to look like we were not going to be able to get the immigration stuff done in time to get back to the hotel by 13:00 (1:00) so we could get a ride to the airport and catch our flight at 16:30. Then with only 4 more people to go, 12:00 came and the entire office shut down for lunch until 13:00. That just sealed it. We will be staying in Bangkok another night and are not going to make our flight this afternoon.

Now begins the fun of changing travel plans at the last minute and seeing if there is anything to salvage. As we were texting with our friends back in Germany, Susi was quick to reply that “God has his own plans and that to the best of our ability we should just enjoy Bangkok”. She was right. There was nothing that we could do, so we had a choice, be upset and frustrated by it, or laugh and enjoy the ride. We chose the latter.

So we had to re-booked our hotel (thankful they had availability) and were able to keep the same room, we got our Visas done and we were back at the hotel by 14:00 (2:00 pm). So back at the room we booked new flights (we had gotten the cheapest flights and they were non-refundable and not changeable) for tomorrow and called our hotel in Chiang Mai to let them know that we were not going to be there today, but that we would check in tomorrow afternoon. All was good.

The rest of the day went pretty smoothly. The kids played in the pool for about 2 hours while Jeff and I just relaxed poolside. We decided to order dinner in and just keep things as simple as possible so we could get the kids to bed early since we had to be up and out of the hotel pretty early to catch our new flight. Unfortunately we had another melt down from Anjali, this time because she wanted to share a bed with David, but that meant that Lucia (the 5 yr old) would have to sleep on the couch. That wasn’t going to happen so we tried to talk with Anjali and tried to get her to cooperate, to no avail. David offered to sleep on the couch again, but neither Jeff or I wanted to have him do that. Anjali should not get her way just because she throws a fit. So David and Lucia quickly fall asleep and Anjali lost her mind, again, with another tantrum. It is exhausting, as I am sure you can imagine. All of this flopping around and wailing and yelling from her resulted in Jeff taking her tablet and computer away from her as a punishment. After about 2 hours of this and us trying to talk some sense into her, she finally came into our room crying because she felt so terrible about how she acted. She apologized and snuggled up with us in bed as Jeff and I watched a movie. Sigh…..parenting is not for the faint at heart.

An update on David: we are still dealing with his forehead and scalp being itchy, red and blotchy and we still do not know what it is. This is very frustrating and confusing.

Wednesday September 26, 2018

Psalm 146:5-9 Great is our Lord, and abundant in power, his understanding is beyond measure. The Lord lifts up the humble; he casts the wicked to the ground. Sing to the Lord with thanksgiving; make melody to our God on the lyre! He covers the heavens with clouds; he prepares rain for the earth; he makes grass grow on the hills. He gives to the beasts their food and to the young ravens that cry.

Our kids are still struggling with the concept of homeschooling, though they seem to be accepting it a bit more and I am learning how much they can get done in the time that they are needing to spend doing school work. We are navigating this process together. The biggest difficulty here is that they are still attending school, but they are not learning much, as far as their core classes go, though they are learning more than any classroom can teach.

They are learning how necessary it is to be patient with others, they are learning humility and how to rely on others, they are learning a different culture and language, all by just attending school and spending the day with the children of Schönebeck. My prayer every day is for my children to take passages like this one to heart and to truly live it out daily; to understand and believe that God is always there for us and that He will always provide for our needs, we just have to have faith that He knows are needs, and often better than we do. This is not an easy road to walk. It is scary and the path is often unknown, we just have to put one foot in front of the other, head in the direction He guides, and have faith that He knows us better than we know ourselves.